Like many, if not most, I had a rough first year as a teacher. I was 21 years old and full of passion and desire but little else. I had survived student teaching on the Navajo Reservation for six months, but arrived on the other side of that experience with much to learn. I was teaching two-hour blocks of seventh-grade history and English. I was struggling on almost every level in almost every area.
You name it and I was having difficulty with it. Content — struggling. Implementing pedagogy — struggling. Connecting with students — struggling. Connecting with colleagues — struggling. Lesson design — struggling. To top it all off, I was new to town, and the woman I loved was across the country working on a master’s degree. It was bad all over. And don’t even remind me of the classroom management disasters I was experiencing.
Things had gotten so bad that I had taken to writing my letter of resignation as a stress-reliever. On particularly bad days I would go home, lock myself in my bedroom and write out a letter to my principal explaining why I was such a failure, asking him to accept my letter of resignation.
It was the day after writing my letter of resignation for the second time that I was introduced to Ted Sizer. That was when an older teacher whom I had never seen before stopped by room and said, “You’re new right? Here,” and then abruptly left. I didn’t know until later that she was leaving the school forever, retiring in the middle of school year. She had handed me a book entitled Horace’s Compromise by an educator I had never heard of named Ted Sizer. It was old and battered, underlined, with questions and recriminations scribbled in the margins. I was obviously a book that had been loved and examined repeatedly, mined for all its nuggets of knowledge.
I sat down right there in my classroom and began to skim it. I read the majority of it that night and had read it all by the weekend. The book gave me energy, a bounce that I needed to keep alive. On Saturday, I went in pursuit of Sizer’s second book, Horace’s School, and devoured that one as quickly as the first. Sizer’s writing style was unique for an educational text. He wrote through the eyes of an “everyman,” a fictional English teacher named Horace Smith who examines and explains the compromises that educators face working in a system without the time and support to do their jobs as well as they need to it. In the second book, Horace Smith becomes a part of the reform at his school site. The books were honest and hopeful and it is not too much to say that they saved my career. It was through these books that I was introduced to Ted Sizer’s Coalition of Essential Schools and the underlying educational philosophy and pedagogy that he developed.
If you’ve ever used an essential question, ever backwards planned, ever engaged students in a Socratic Seminar, or ever had students complete an end-of-unit or end-of-course exhibition, then you have been the beneficiary of the work of Ted Sizer. It is with great sadness that I mourn his passing on October 24th, 2009. He will be greatly missed in the educational struggles that are ahead of us, and all around us.



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Teachers DO
Teachers DO Care..........................
WOW the things us students fail to realize as kids is that teachers do have a life, and some of them actually care to make a difference, If this is my 7th grade history teacher Mr.Gibbs, I remember your first year of teaching, it was tuff, but as a HS teacher you are one of the most memorable teachers, so know one student did listen and that's all it takes... :)
Daniela! Thank you so much
Daniela!
Thank you so much for your comments it means so much. I can't believe you survived my 7th grade class, 10th grade class, and 11th grade class. Teaching is a difficult, terrifying, beautiful, soul edifying, profound life changing profession that never gets any better, but we get better at it, at least I hope we do. Thank you so much for reminding me that I did grow and that I did get better. It's so good to hear from someone who was there at the beginning. If you're still in Los Angeles and have the time you should stop by Roosevelt. It would be great to see you.
Brian, I read Ted Sizer's
Brian,
I read Ted Sizer's obit in the LA Times with interest, and your memorial here has inspired me to read his books. It's so easy, for new teachers especially, to get overwhelmed and discouraged by the challenges of educating children in a system more and more inclined to measure success by test scores alone.
I suspect you were a rather harsh critic of your own teaching skills. Daniela's reply is a testament to the fact that you truly have a positive impact on your students' lives, even when you're feeling like a failure.
Thank you!
Mary Rose, Thanks so much for
Mary Rose,
Thanks so much for your response. I'd like to think I'm being too harsh on my first year, but when I re-read my journal entries from that time, I'm not so sure. Thank you for your kind words. I'm so glad you're going to read some Ted Sizer. I'd love to hear what you think of his writing and educational philosophy after you've finished a book or two. Thanks again!
Mr. Gibbs! I don't even know
Mr. Gibbs! I don't even know how I came upon this article, but it is very refreshing. I too am inspired to read the works of Ted Sizer. If they inspired an individual such as yourself to be the amazing teacher you were to me, then his work must have been incredible. It's very interesting because I just learned the backwards planning system during my summer school session at Mount St. Mary's College (getting my credential and hoping to be a social studies teacher by sometime next year), and it has made my lesson planning life a tough, but rewarding process. And how can I forget the essential question. That one question that helped us tie the content back to our own lives. I thought you made that up, since you were the only teacher that I had ever known to use that in his classroom :-) I am glad to know that the impact educators have trickles down into the most unexpected of places. It makes my choice of vocation seem all the more worth it.
I remember you made a mention
I remember you made a mention of how you stuggled that first year but I had no real clue to the extent until right now. All I can say, and this is not enough btw, is Thank You Mr. Gibbs!
Your high energy and love of what you do is what I most remember of being in your classes and considering that you had taught my brothers as well . . . Well let's say we still mention your Socratic Seminars between me and Nick there. Thank you for staying, Gibbs!!